I'm a little embarrassed to be paraphrasing M*A*S*H, but there was a line from the show- Sometimes you look to God for answers; sometimes the answer is no. I suppose one way to look at this is to see it as theater-there'll be a loud bang & the lights will go out. It's a great a grea pic for all its "darkness"
You have a good technique in a lot of your work, but some of it, like this, is just too dark for my tastes. I think there is too much negativity in modern art, and not enough uplifting of thought--but that's just me.